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that the croupier paid me out three times my total stake! Thus

from 100 gulden my store had grown to 800! Upon that such a

curious, such an inexplicable, unwonted feeling overcame me that

I decided to depart. Always the thought kept recurring to me

that if I had been playing for myself alone I should never have

had such luck. Once more I staked the whole 800 gulden on the

"even." The wheel stopped at 4. I was paid out another 800

gulden, and, snatching up my pile of 1600, departed in search of

Polina Alexandrovna.
I found the whole party walking in the park, and was able to get

an interview with her only after supper. This time the Frenchman

was absent from the meal, and the General seemed to be in a more

expansive vein. Among other things, he thought it necessary to

remind me that he would be sorry to see me playing at the

gaming-tables. In his opinion, such conduct would greatly

compromise him--especially if I were to lose much. " And even if

you were to WIN much I should be compromised," he added in a

meaning sort of way. "Of course I have no RIGHT to order your

actions, but you yourself will agree that..." As usual, he did not

finish his sentence. I answered drily that I had very little

money in my possession, and that, consequently, I was hardly in

a position to indulge in any conspicuous play, even if I did

gamble. At last, when ascending to my own room, I succeeded in

handing Polina her winnings, and told her that, next time, I

should not play for her.


"Why not?" she asked excitedly.
"Because I wish to play FOR MYSELF," I replied with a feigned

glance of astonishment. "That is my sole reason."


"Then are you so certain that your roulette-playing will get us

out of our difficulties?" she inquired with a quizzical smile.


I said very seriously, "Yes," and then added: "Possibly my

certainty about winning may seem to you ridiculous;

yet, pray leave me in peace."
Nonetheless she insisted that I ought to go halves with her in

the day's winnings, and offered me 800 gulden on condition that

henceforth, I gambled only on those terms; but I refused to do

so, once and for all--stating, as my reason, that I found myself

unable to play on behalf of any one else, "I am not unwilling

so to do," I added, "but in all probability I should lose."


"Well, absurd though it be, I place great hopes on your playing

of roulette," she remarked musingly; "wherefore, you ought to

play as my partner and on equal shares; wherefore, of course,

you will do as I wish."


Then she left me without listening to any further protests on my

part.
III


On the morrow she said not a word to me about gambling. In fact,

she purposely avoided me, although her old manner to me had not

changed: the same serene coolness was hers on meeting me -- a

coolness that was mingled even with a spice of contempt and

dislike. In short, she was at no pains to conceal her aversion

to me. That I could see plainly. Also, she did not trouble to

conceal from me the fact that I was necessary to her, and that

she was keeping me for some end which she had in view.

Consequently there became established between us relations

which, to a large extent, were incomprehensible to me,

considering her general pride and aloofness. For example,

although she knew that I was madly in love with her, she allowed

me to speak to her of my passion (though she could not well have

showed her contempt for me more than by permitting me,

unhindered and unrebuked, to mention to her my love).
"You see," her attitude expressed, "how little I regard your

feelings, as well as how little I care for what you say to me,

or for what you feel for me." Likewise, though she spoke as

before concerning her affairs, it was never with complete

frankness. In her contempt for me there were refinements.

Although she knew well that I was aware of a certain

circumstance in her life of something which might one day cause

her trouble, she would speak to me about her affairs (whenever

she had need of me for a given end) as though I were a slave or

a passing acquaintance--yet tell them me only in so far as one

would need to know them if one were going to be made temporary

use of. Had I not known the whole chain of events, or had she

not seen how much I was pained and disturbed by her teasing

insistency, she would never have thought it worthwhile to

soothe me with this frankness--even though, since she not

infrequently used me to execute commissions that were not only

troublesome, but risky, she ought, in my opinion, to have been

frank in ANY case. But, forsooth, it was not worth her while to

trouble about MY feelings--about the fact that I was uneasy, and,

perhaps, thrice as put about by her cares and misfortunes as she

was herself!
For three weeks I had known of her intention to take to

roulette. She had even warned me that she would like me to play

on her behalf, since it was unbecoming for her to play in

person; and, from the tone of her words I had gathered that there

was something on her mind besides a mere desire to win money. As

if money could matter to HER! No, she had some end in view, and

there were circumstances at which I could guess, but which I did

not know for certain. True, the slavery and abasement in which

she held me might have given me (such things often do so) the

power to question her with abrupt directness (seeing that,

inasmuch as I figured in her eyes as a mere slave and nonentity,

she could not very well have taken offence at any rude

curiosity); but the fact was that, though she let me question

her, she never returned me a single answer, and at times did not

so much as notice me. That is how matters stood.
Next day there was a good deal of talk about a telegram which,

four days ago, had been sent to St. Petersburg, but to which

there had come no answer. The General was visibly disturbed and

moody, for the matter concerned his mother. The Frenchman, too,

was excited, and after dinner the whole party talked long and

seriously together--the Frenchman's tone being extraordinarily

presumptuous and offhand to everybody. It almost reminded one of

the proverb, "Invite a man to your table, and soon he will

place his feet upon it." Even to Polina he was brusque almost to

the point of rudeness. Yet still he seemed glad to join us in

our walks in the Casino, or in our rides and drives about the

town. I had long been aware of certain circumstances which bound

the General to him; I had long been aware that in Russia they

had hatched some scheme together although I did not know whether

the plot had come to anything, or whether it was still only in

the stage of being talked of. Likewise I was aware, in part, of

a family secret--namely, that, last year, the Frenchman had

bailed the General out of debt, and given him 30,000 roubles

wherewith to pay his Treasury dues on retiring from the service.

And now, of course, the General was in a vice -- although the

chief part in the affair was being played by Mlle. Blanche. Yes,

of this last I had no doubt.


But WHO was this Mlle. Blanche? It was said of her that she was

a Frenchwoman of good birth who, living with her mother,

possessed a colossal fortune. It was also said that she was some

relation to the Marquis, but only a distant one a cousin, or

cousin-german, or something of the sort. Likewise I knew that,

up to the time of my journey to Paris, she and the Frenchman had

been more ceremonious towards our party--they had stood on a much

more precise and delicate footing with them; but that now their

acquaintanceship--their friendship, their intimacy--had taken on a

much more off-hand and rough-and-ready air. Perhaps they thought

that our means were too modest for them, and, therefore, unworthy

of politeness or reticence. Also, for the last three days I had

noticed certain looks which Astley had kept throwing at Mlle.

Blanche and her mother; and it had occurred to me that he must

have had some previous acquaintance with the pair. I had even

surmised that the Frenchman too must have met Mr. Astley before.

Astley was a man so shy, reserved, and taciturn in his manner

that one might have looked for anything from him. At all events

the Frenchman accorded him only the slightest of greetings, and

scarcely even looked at him. Certainly he did not seem to be

afraid of him; which was intelligible enough. But why did Mlle.

Blanche also never look at the Englishman?--particularly since,

a propos of something or another, the Marquis had declared the

Englishman to be immensely and indubitably rich? Was not that a

sufficient reason to make Mlle. Blanche look at the Englishman?

Anyway the General seemed extremely uneasy; and, one could well

understand what a telegram to announce the death of his mother

would mean for him!


Although I thought it probable that Polina was avoiding me for a

definite reason, I adopted a cold and indifferent air; for I

felt pretty certain that it would not be long before she

herself approached me. For two days, therefore, I devoted my

attention to Mlle. Blanche. The poor General was in despair! To

fall in love at fifty-five, and with such vehemence, is indeed a

misfortune! And add to that his widowerhood, his children, his

ruined property, his debts, and the woman with whom he had

fallen in love! Though Mlle. Blanche was extremely good-looking,

I may or may not be understood when I say that she had one of

those faces which one is afraid of. At all events, I myself have

always feared such women. Apparently about twenty-five years of

age, she was tall and broad-shouldered, with shoulders that

sloped; yet though her neck and bosom were ample in their

proportions, her skin was dull yellow in colour, while her hair

(which was extremely abundant--sufficient to make two

coiffures) was as black as Indian ink. Add to that a pair of

black eyes with yellowish whites, a proud glance, gleaming

teeth, and lips which were perennially pomaded and redolent of

musk. As for her dress, it was invariably rich, effective, and

chic, yet in good taste. Lastly, her feet and hands were

astonishing, and her voice a deep contralto. Sometimes, when she

laughed, she displayed her teeth, but at ordinary times her air

was taciturn and haughty--especially in the presence of Polina

and Maria Philipovna. Yet she seemed to me almost destitute of

education, and even of wits, though cunning and suspicious.

This, apparently, was not because her life had been lacking in

incident. Perhaps, if all were known, the Marquis was not her

kinsman at all, nor her mother, her mother; but there was

evidence that, in Berlin, where we had first come across the

pair, they had possessed acquaintances of good standing. As for

the Marquis himself, I doubt to this day if he was a

Marquis--although about the fact that he had formerly belonged to

high society (for instance, in Moscow and Germany) there could

be no doubt whatever. What he had formerly been in France I had

not a notion. All I knew was that he was said to possess a

chateau. During the last two weeks I had looked for much to

transpire, but am still ignorant whether at that time anything

decisive ever passed between Mademoiselle and the General.

Everything seemed to depend upon our means--upon whether the

General would be able to flourish sufficient money in her face.

If ever the news should arrive that the grandmother was not

dead, Mlle. Blanche, I felt sure, would disappear in a

twinkling. Indeed, it surprised and amused me to observe what a

passion for intrigue I was developing. But how I loathed it all!

With what pleasure would I have given everybody and everything

the go-by! Only--I could not leave Polina. How, then, could I

show contempt for those who surrounded her? Espionage is a base

thing, but--what have I to do with that?
Mr. Astley, too, I found a curious person. I was only sure that

he had fallen in love With Polina. A remarkable and diverting

circumstance is the amount which may lie in the mien of a shy

and painfully modest man who has been touched with the divine

passion--especially when he would rather sink into the earth than

betray himself by a single word or look. Though Mr. Astley

frequently met us when we were out walking, he would merely take

off his hat and pass us by, though I knew he was dying to join

us. Even when invited to do so, he would refuse. Again, in

places of amusement--in the Casino, at concerts, or near the

fountain--he was never far from the spot where we were sitting.

In fact, WHEREVER we were in the Park, in the forest, or on the

Shlangenberg--one needed but to raise one's eyes and glance

around to catch sight of at least a PORTION of Mr. Astley's

frame sticking out--whether on an adjacent path or behind a bush.

Yet never did he lose any chance of speaking to myself; and, one

morning when we had met, and exchanged a couple of words, he

burst out in his usual abrupt way, without saying "Good-morning."


"That Mlle. Blanche," he said. "Well, I have seen a good many

women like her."


After that he was silent as he looked me meaningly in the face.

What he meant I did not know, but to my glance of inquiry he

returned only a dry nod, and a reiterated "It is so."

Presently, however, he resumed:


"Does Mlle. Polina like flowers?"
" I really cannot say," was my reply.
"What? You cannot say?" he cried in great astonishment.
"No; I have never noticed whether she does so or not," I

repeated with a smile.


"Hm! Then I have an idea in my mind," he concluded. Lastly,

with a nod, he walked away with a pleased expression on his

face. The conversation had been carried on in execrable French.
IV
Today has been a day of folly, stupidity, and ineptness. The

time is now eleven o'clock in the evening, and I am sitting in

my room and thinking. It all began, this morning, with my being

forced to go and play roulette for Polina Alexandrovna. When she

handed me over her store of six hundred gulden I exacted two

conditions --namely, that I should not go halves with her in her

winnings, if any (that is to say, I should not take anything for

myself), and that she should explain to me, that same evening,

why it was so necessary for her to win, and how much was the sum

which she needed. For, I could not suppose that she was doing all

this merely for the sake of money. Yet clearly she did need some

money, and that as soon as possible, and for a special purpose.

Well, she promised to explain matters, and I departed. There was

a tremendous crowd in the gaming-rooms. What an arrogant, greedy

crowd it was! I pressed forward towards the middle of the room

until I had secured a seat at a croupier's elbow. Then I began

to play in timid fashion, venturing only twenty or thirty gulden

at a time. Meanwhile, I observed and took notes. It seemed to me

that calculation was superfluous, and by no means possessed of

the importance which certain other players attached to it, even

though they sat with ruled papers in their hands, whereon they

set down the coups, calculated the chances, reckoned, staked,

and--lost exactly as we more simple mortals did who played

without any reckoning at all.


However, I deduced from the scene one conclusion which seemed to me

reliable --namely, that in the flow of fortuitous chances there is,

if not a system, at all events a sort of order. This, of course,

is a very strange thing. For instance, after a dozen middle figures

there would always occur a dozen or so outer ones. Suppose the ball

stopped twice at a dozen outer figures; it would then pass to a dozen of

the first ones, and then, again, to a dozen of the middle

ciphers, and fall upon them three or four times, and then revert

to a dozen outers; whence, after another couple of rounds, the

ball would again pass to the first figures, strike upon them

once, and then return thrice to the middle series--continuing

thus for an hour and a half, or two hours. One, three, two: one,

three, two. It was all very curious. Again, for the whole of a

day or a morning the red would alternate with the black, but

almost without any order, and from moment to moment, so that

scarcely two consecutive rounds would end upon either the one or

the other. Yet, next day, or, perhaps, the next evening, the red

alone would turn up, and attain a run of over two score, and

continue so for quite a length of time--say, for a whole day. Of

these circumstances the majority were pointed out to me by Mr.

Astley, who stood by the gaming-table the whole morning, yet

never once staked in person.


For myself, I lost all that I had on me, and with great speed.

To begin with, I staked two hundred gulden on " even," and won.

Then I staked the same amount again, and won: and so on some two or

three times. At one moment I must have had in my hands--gathered there

within a space of five minutes--about 4000 gulden. That, of course,

was the proper moment for me to have departed, but there arose in me a

strange sensation as of a challenge to Fate--as of a wish to deal her a

blow on the cheek, and to put out my tongue at her. Accordingly

I set down the largest stake allowed by the rules--namely, 4000

gulden--and lost. Fired by this mishap, I pulled out all the

money left to me, staked it all on the same venture, and--again

lost! Then I rose from the table, feeling as though I were

stupefied. What had happened to me I did not know; but, before

luncheon I told Polina of my losses-- until which time I walked

about the Park.
At luncheon I was as excited as I had been at the meal three

days ago. Mlle. Blanche and the Frenchman were lunching with us,

and it appeared that the former had been to the Casino that

morning, and had seen my exploits there. So now she showed me

more attention when talking to me; while, for his part, the

Frenchman approached me, and asked outright if it had been my

own money that I had lost. He appeared to be suspicious as to

something being on foot between Polina and myself, but I merely

fired up, and replied that the money had been all my own.
At this the General seemed extremely surprised, and asked me

whence I had procured it; whereupon I replied that, though I

had begun only with 100 gulden, six or seven rounds had

increased my capital to 5000 or 6000 gulden, and that

subsequently I had lost the whole in two rounds.
All this, of course, was plausible enough. During my recital I

glanced at Polina, but nothing was to be discerned on her face.

However, she had allowed me to fire up without correcting me,

and from that I concluded that it was my cue to fire up, and to

conceal the fact that I had been playing on her behalf. "At all

events," I thought to myself, "she, in her turn, has promised

to give me an explanation to-night, and to reveal to me

something or another."


Although the General appeared to be taking stock of me, he said

nothing. Yet I could see uneasiness and annoyance in his face.

Perhaps his straitened circumstances made it hard for him to

have to hear of piles of gold passing through the hands of an

irresponsible fool like myself within the space of a quarter of

an hour. Now, I have an idea that, last night, he and the

Frenchman had a sharp encounter with one another. At all events

they closeted themselves together, and then had a long and vehement

discussion; after which the Frenchman departed in what appeared to be

a passion, but returned, early this morning, to renew the combat.

On hearing of my losses, however, he only remarked with a sharp,

and even a malicious, air that "a man ought to go more carefully."

Next, for some reason or another, he added that, "though a great many

Russians go in for gambling, they are no good at the game."


"I think that roulette was devised specially for Russians," I

retorted; and when the Frenchman smiled contemptuously at my

reply I further remarked that I was sure I was right; also that,

speaking of Russians in the capacity of gamblers, I had far more

blame for them than praise--of that he could be quite sure.
"Upon what do you base your opinion?" he inquired.
"Upon the fact that to the virtues and merits of the civilised

Westerner there has become historically added--though this is

not his chief point--a capacity for acquiring capital; whereas,

not only is the Russian incapable of acquiring capital, but also

he exhausts it wantonly and of sheer folly. None the less we

Russians often need money; wherefore, we are glad of, and greatly

devoted to, a method of acquisition like roulette--whereby, in a

couple of hours, one may grow rich without doing any work. This

method, I repeat, has a great attraction for us, but since we

play in wanton fashion, and without taking any trouble, we

almost invariably lose."
"To a certain extent that is true," assented the Frenchman with

a self-satisfied air.


"Oh no, it is not true," put in the General sternly. "And you,"

he added to me, "you ought to be ashamed of yourself for

traducing your own country!"
"I beg pardon," I said. "Yet it would be difficult to say

which is the worst of the two--Russian ineptitude or the German

method of growing rich through honest toil."
"What an extraordinary idea," cried the General.
"And what a RUSSIAN idea!" added the Frenchman.
I smiled, for I was rather glad to have a quarrel with them.
"I would rather live a wandering life in tents," I cried,

"than bow the knee to a German idol!"


"To WHAT idol?" exclaimed the General, now seriously angry.
"To the German method of heaping up riches. I have not been

here very long, but I can tell you that what I have seen and

verified makes my Tartar blood boil. Good Lord! I wish for no

virtues of that kind. Yesterday I went for a walk of about ten

versts; and, everywhere I found that things were even as we read

of them in good German picture-books -- that every house has its

'Fater,' who is horribly beneficent and extraordinarily

honourable. So honourable is he that it is dreadful to have



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